Not-So-Secret Diary

Stepping out my Comfort Zone

For years now I have suffered with anxiety and this has made me someone who enjoys just ‘floating’ in life, not standing out or doing anything different just simply doing the same things and not really changing my routine up or trying anything new.

Apart from moving out from my parents house and changing up jobs once in a while, I haven’t really done anything different and new in quite a while. Well, that is, up until this year.

So, I have decided that this year I really want to step out of my comfort zone and try new things… now I can’t say I have organised a lot because well, I haven’t. But I did decide in May this year, to support Dogs Trust, I would participate in a sponsored Sky Dive!!!

Now that is most definitely stepping out my comfort zone! I have never been scared of heights and I have always wanted to jump out of a plane but it’s one of them things that I thought just passed and it was a challenge to make it a reality. But, in actual fact, it was just a matter of contacting the company and setting a date and then, of course, raise some money for the chosen Charity.

I am super excited to do this but it still feels very surreal at the moment. Not to mention, I keep forgetting about it and I haven’t really mentioned it to a lot of people and so I really need to get my finger out and raise awareness to all my friends and family about it.

If anyone would like to sponsor me for this, I would be so grateful and appreciative as I am starting to get a little nervous about it.. I mean, it is only 2 months away ahhhhh!

If anyone has any tips on what to take with me on the day/what to wear/what to expect I would again, be so grateful, as I have never done anything like this before. Do I eat before it and risk bringing it back up mid-air, lol!

Anyway, I just really wanted to vent that out and hopefully get some tips and advice for the big day when it comes. Why don’t you step out your comfort zone this year and try something new?

Have any of you ever sky dived, please let me know below!

JustGiving Fundraising Page:

https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/leigh-burns2

Lots of love,

L xxx

Beginning a New Job

Recently, I started a new job at a call centre, I have completed the 4 weeks of classroom training and I am 1 day into the real life call training where you take the calls, fully supported by managers and floor walkers. During this process I have realised how often people change jobs or begin a job for the first time and it can be so daunting, the fear of the unknown. No matter how many times you change jobs, nothing can stop the butterflies the night before your first day or the fear of getting out the car once you arrive.

Looking back at my first day, I was so nervous – I have had 3 jobs previous to this one but none of which were a call centre and I think this made me a little more nervous. The assumptions which ran through my head were ‘no one will like me’ ‘everyone will take to the training better than me’ ‘if I get anything wrong, they will laugh at me’. I can now tell you how wrong I was to think any of that was true. When you start a new job with a group of people, everyone is in the same boat – in fact many may feel and think the same things as you. Although you may not like feeling and thinking this way, it is so normal and human. It is okay to be nervous and have butterflies in your tummy.

The most important thing on the first day of a job is to just be yourself. Be helpful, kind and also, if you aren’t understanding something – be honest! Someone else in the room may feel the same as you and doesn’t want to say anything. Everyone picks things up at a different level and that is okay, that is what makes us all unique and different.

My point of this post is to just let you all know that nerves aren’t a bad thing, in lots of situations its good to be nervous and everyone around you probably feel the same way. So, never ever let your doubts and fears stop you from doing the thing that you want to do. Let them push you into doing it and then look back and be proud of yourself for overcoming fears and worries.

Have you recently began a new career path? Did you overcome your fears? If you did, please be proud and well done as it is a difficult thing to overcome at times.

L x

January Favourites

Hey everyone, another month is upon us so soon and so I have decided to share a few of the bits I have been loving in the month of January… enjoy!

As you may know, I am not a big TV fanatic, but, when I find something I like, I get hooked instantly. I must say ‘The Good Doctor’ has been my main favourite this month. It is an amazing series that I love following, I heard good reviews about it as it is not normally a program I would watch but I instantly fell in love with the main character, who plays autistic surgeon Shaun Murphy. I have went through all emotions whilst following this series, there’s been laughter; tears and everything in between… and that, for me, is a sign of a fantastic drama. I would highly recommend anyone to watch this as I have had trouble putting the remote down after starting this box set.

Music Favourites

The Cadillac Three – Slide (Country)

Cardi B – I Like It (Rap)

Blue Swede – Hooked on a Feeling (Pop)

TV Favourites

2 Doors Down – BBC Scotland

The Good Doctor – Sky Witness

Teen Mom UK Series 5 – MTV

Beauty Favourites

Liz Earle Cleanse and Polish

Benefit – Hula Bronzer

Food Favourites

Home-made Chicken Curry

Custard Creams – Biscuits

Blog Favourites

My brother and sister-in-law started a blog called ‘A Lens on the Past’ focussing on Scottish historic buildings and other history relating to the country, I love it!

‘ Seeking my Utopia, written by Aditya’ is another blog I have been loving, his posts can open your eyes up and see the world in a different light.. they always leave me feeling inspired and motivated and so I would definitely recommend giving it a read.

‘Butterflies and Boundaries by Sinéad Anna Chalke’ is another great read, following the life of Sinéad and her lovely wife. Her posts are always so warming and I would, again, recommend you to check it out.

Anyway, another month over and to see what February brings to us. Nothing planned as of yet but looking forward to, once again, just being chilled, enjoying the ride of life and eating as usual! Happy February folks.

Do you have anything exciting coming up? Let me know!

L x